I've been gone

Hey everyone,
As you can tell I haven't been around for a while (8 or so weeks) and today I want to let you know why.
I have been blogging for around 3 years and the past year has felt like a chore That's probably why not many people enjoyed reading my posts, because I didn't enjoy writing them. I have tried 'fixing' my blog to make it more readable and even to make it more enjoyable for me but nothing has really changed.
After I figured out what was really wrong I wanted to stop blogging completely and make videos for YouTube. For 7 (ish) weeks I didn't have the guts to film a video, I knew what I wanted to talk about but still didn't. One day last week I finally did it. But I was so nervous I didn't actually say anything I wanted too talk about. The next day I wrote down everything I wanted to talk about and filmed it again, it still wasn't perfect and I was really upset by that, but after a while a figured out that it didn't matter how many times I filmed it, it is my first video (that I talk in) and it is supposed to be bad and I'm not supposed to be comfortable around a camera.
I now know how hard it is to film a video. Lets rephrase that, I now know hard how it is to talk to a camera while filming. I can't talk properly to real life or even type properly for that matter.
So this post has been a mash up of my thoughts that probably make no sense what so ever but I really had to get it out and let you know what happened.
I would like to slowly return to blogging about everyday day stuff and not have to plan anything. As much as I love planning and designing this blog I really want to focus on what I write about.
Something I hoping to write about closely in the future is DIY hair and skin stuff as I have been researching it a lot for school, let me know what you think of that.
I congratulate you if you read all of that and somewhat understood it I meant.
Thanks for reading this odd post and I hope to be back again soon :)